colby caldwellHOLLER

Leif Erik Johansen - Day Two

colby caldwellHOLLER
    me studying kung fu in Dali, China 2005

 

me studying kung fu in Dali, China 2005

For as long as i can remember I've had this insatiable desire to experience as much as I can in my life. I don't believe in heaven or reincarnation so my mantra has always been, "you have one life to live, so live it, don't just talk about it!"

My life before becoming a father was all about lifestyle and I took full advantage of it. In 2005 my girlfriend and I quit our jobs, sold our possessions and traveled abroad for thirteen months straight. On that trip we learned to make wine in New Zealand, went bungee jumping, paragliding and skydiving. While in China we studied Mandarin two days a week and kung fu three days a week for a month. We traveled from the southern tip on India all the way up the west coast and into the semi-autonomous province of Sikkim in the Himalayas to do some trekking. I learned on that trip I was an artist and went full-time a few years after returning home. I also learned I wanted to be a father on that trip and I now have two beautiful boys.

I lost a friend two days ago to suicide. I don't want to get into the whole reason or psychology behind why people do it or why they become sad or hopeless. But I can't help but think about everything they will miss out on, all those experience they will never have that could reshape their lives in unforeseeable ways and propelled them into new and exciting direction. Life can get overwhelming, but it's like the weather or the economy, it's cyclical, so let's not forget how beautiful and exciting the world can be if you take advantage of all it has to offer.