colby caldwell

Mary Ellen Lough - Day Three

colby caldwell
Mary Ellen Lough - Day Three
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Poets Jessica Jacobs and Nickole Brown’s marriage has long been a love that saves me from cynicism. Jessica’s forthcoming book, TAKE ME WITH YOU, WHEREVER YOU'RE GOING,[1] documents the beauty and complexity of that committed love. One afternoon over coffee, I was complaining about how hearts have a will of their own in spite of us. Jessica laughed and said, “Yeah, thanks stupid heart.” Which became the title of a poem → “Thanks stupid heart / like for the time I banished her / number from every device I owned / only to find the digits scrawled on your / anterior wall.”[2]

A couple of months ago, they passed along a king-sized mattress to us. After trying with no luck but a lot of laughter to get it up the staircase, it ended up in my room, and I swear once settled in place there was a glow around the thing.  I didn’t even know what a pillowtop was, but I’ll be damned if our sleep isn’t blessed now. “Our” because about two weeks into finally getting her own bedroom, my six year old returned to my new (“huge!”) bed to sleep. (Shown here shooting rubberbands off a pencil at the ceiling, a favorite pastime.) “...and faithful, dumb muscle you are, stupid beautiful heart, you beat only for her.”

 


[1] To be released March 2019 (Four Way Books)

[2]  Crazyhorse Literary Journal